Give it to me
Dear Diary... Pictures Of Moi Glimpse Of My Life
Just not you're average girl and I am ok with that! I love music (who doesn't) food, fashion, makeup, and art. Ok those were the fun typical girly things. Lets move on to the not so normal. I like serial killers, porn, sarcasm, creepy things, documentaries, history, and alcohol!
DISCLAIMER: I typed this about two weeks ago and yeah I suppose I should publish it now…. blah!
I want to type this so I can go to bed with a clear mind… as in I want to get this shit out the way!
Ok I am “dating” somebody… we are not official we are just you know in the beginning stages.
Which means we don’t owe each other any explanations.
What he does and who he sees is his thing.
Just like what I do and who I see is my problem.
I appreciate that he is letting me know but I again he is not my boyfriend and I am not his girlfriend.
We had this conversation about taking it slow not setting expectations on each other in case one of us failed. Basically no pressure and whatever happens happens.
Mainly because I sort of know how he is and I don’t have time to be stressing… which is a lie cause look at me now!
Any who we had silly fight over a joke I said… oh gosh kill me now for being me! Somehow that shit led up to us getting upset so you know I don’t want to fight so I said I’ll talk to you tomorrow because I’m upset.
Which should of been the end of stuff… oh no it was not!
I am upset so I need to relax and I go take a 30 minute bath get out and see a text saying “My ex wants to see me”
WTF I told you I didn’t want to talk with you tonight because I am upset!!!
So why do you want to continue talking to me? Didn’t you get it no is no?
To top it all of you would think he wants to continue arguing over that petty joke? But no he wants to push my buttons and bring his ex?
I really wanted to text him back and say “I’M NOT YOUR GIRLFRIEND I DONT CARE WHO YOU SEE OR TALK TO”
If I had then I would of given him what he wanted and I will stand my ground!
MY QUESTION:
WHY DO PEOPLE DO THIS NOT UNDERSTAND THAT A NO IS A NO???
till morning dawned i was tossed on a buoyant but unquiet sea, where billows of trouble rolled under surges of joy.
(Source: heyelliee, via valereames)
Hope, faith, dreams, and love
(Source: a-million-times-over, via preetminhas)
Yes I want to avoid things.
I don’t care if it’s cowardly or immature but I want to leave.
At least I know that I want to escape and not in denial about it.
Things go good but then suddenly they go bad and that is just life at it’s finest
Now maybe I am overreacting (like always) but this time is different (yeah right) because I have tried almost everything and nothing.
The plan was and should still be to leave after the summer so I need to stop pushing that to the back burner and just get on with it!
Wow and it’s 3:19 am how crazy is that
(via asiando11)
