So I finally saw him and he was real yet it all felt so surreal. At first I was shy but after awhile I let my guard down. I became everything he once knew. Everything he once loved. I for the first time in a long time was EVERYTHING!!! I almost forgot all the pain/love that consumed my soul. I had actually forgiven him. I’ll be honest I didn’t think it could be possible. It was just like old times just us two doing nothing but sitting in a car talking about insignificant things yet it’s the best thing to do! But something happened… I touched him and I didn’t feel anything. That moment I dreaded so bad it happened. I felt his arms around me and I had my face to his chest but nothing all there was this awkwardness. There was no spark not even a little. Possible to say there are only ashes of the fire that once burned in my heart. Guess ultimately the fired did consume it?

So I finally saw him and he was real yet it all felt so surreal.
At first I was shy but after awhile I let my guard down. I became everything he once knew. Everything he once loved. I for the first time in a long time was EVERYTHING!!!
I almost forgot all the pain/love that consumed my soul. I had actually forgiven him. I’ll be honest I didn’t think it could be possible.
It was just like old times just us two doing nothing but sitting in a car talking about insignificant things yet it’s the best thing to do!

But something happened…
I touched him and I didn’t feel anything. That moment I dreaded so bad it happened. I felt his arms around me and I had my face to his chest but nothing all there was this awkwardness.

There was no spark not even a little.
Possible to say there are only ashes of the fire that once burned in my heart.

Guess ultimately the fired did consume it?

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    there was this awkwardness.
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