Past the Time, Passing Time

I know I should be sleeping but something in me won’t let me. Now I’m in the sofa naked under my baby blanket.

Maybe I ate too much and now I can’t sleep.

Maybe the coffee earlier today is keeping me awake.

I really don’t know? But something is not right in here. You know where your heart is?

Maybe I ate, a whole lot of sadness dark as coffee.

All I am is Yours

I feel like I need Jesus but not because I don’t have him. More like I need Him to guide me yet I’m scared of what He will tell me. I’m not ready for that ultimate sacrifice. Why do I find ways to sabotage my life. I make things extra complicated?

I prefer avoiding things and not attaching myself to something I can lose. Life has a funny thing of coming and trying to screw you from behind.

I stress but truly it doesn’t matter. My body, mind, and soul belongs to Him and the riches of His love will always be enough.


Holy shit im walking by myself along.the beach.

I met some guy who bought me some drinks and i left with him. His friend then joined us and they were so much fun.

Obviously i lost my real friends and and now im waiting for them. But i just keep walking along the beach

I really need to pee! Asap!